Wednesday, November 6, 2013

"See you at the Table."

As of late, I think I might be the worst at blogging. But, I'm going to try again. I thought I'd dust this little-used blog off today to post a short piece I just submitted for my home church's Advent Devotional. The prompt invited us to write about a time we felt the presence of God, in 300 words or less. 

I recently just finished reading the Harry Potter series for the first time, including the last book, The Deathly Hallows, which has some wisdom to impart about the power of resurrection in the lives of those who continue living after others have died. This weekend, the church universal celebrated All Saints' Day. Perhaps because of these things, when contemplating what to write, I couldn't stop thinking about the seminary's Memorial Service of Witness to the Resurrection for KC Ptomey I attended in September. So, I began to write: 

"The Rev. Dr. KC Ptomey began teaching at Austin Seminary, as professor of Pastoral Ministry and Leadership, the same year I arrived. While there, I took a couple of his courses. They, like KC himself, greatly informed and influenced my understanding of ministry in the church. In his late 60s, KC, with his broad smile, twinkling eyes, infectious laughter, and southern charm, never hesitated to point a finger and tell it like it is. His stories from the front lines of 30+ years of ministry made students both laugh and cringe, always used to illustrate a point discussed in class.
In May, KC died peacefully in his Nashville home, after a short, but no doubt fierce battle with liver cancer. In September, I attended a Memorial Service for him held at the seminary. A Service of Witness to the Resurrection. If I learned anything from KC, this is what funerals are above all else. The tiny chapel filled with saints who’d come to celebrate his life. The seminary president, faculty and students helped lead the service. A Board of Trustees member gave the sermon. His wife, The Rev. Carol Tate, presided at the Table. A refrain, consistent with KC’s life and witness, echoed throughout the service: See you at the Table. KC died believing that death does not have the final word. As I walked forward to receive the Eucharist, surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, I cried tears of grief and joy. The presence of God in the room was thick, palpable, and stuck in my throat. 
I hesitated to talk about death as we enter this season of Advent. But KC taught that in life and death, we belong to God. As I reflect on the presence of God felt at his memorial service, I am reminded that even in the darkest of circumstances, a Bright Light illuminates the world with hope. This is something to celebrate as we enter this season of light."

If I learned anything about myself in the last year, it's that, even as an extrovert, I sometimes need a little longer than anticipated to process powerful events. This is one such example. It's been nearly six months since KC died, but as I re-read his obituary, I still tear up and continue to process. Writing this helped too, which is likely why I chose this experience to share.